One afternoon, I’m on my way home at exactly 5:30 in the afternoom, when the sun is already setting, i realized i lost my wallet, and my battery is dead. Instead of panicking and stressing myself out, i just calmly walked my way home.
It feels too bizzare, for i can’t remember the last time that i had a weird conversation with a stranger, that i enjoyed the loud horn of vehicles, that i last frown to the strong smell of smoke coming from cigarettes.
As i was walking, i was able to spot some differences that has happened in my surrounding, i have known that the old lady sitting on the corner begging for money that i’ve always felt sad for already died. I was also able to enjoy the children in the streets laughing, running on the sidewalks, funny that i don’t usually give anything, but that day i bought them food, i have known that they live beside the old way of trains, near old city hall of Caloocan, and that they’re worrying because they were told that they should leave. Life is really way too hard, too complex.
I walked again, i set aside all the worries i had, all the pressure that’s been very suffocating, very demanding, i just realized that they had taken away my joy. I smiled, even if i may look stupid and weird, i smiled to all the people i passed by, making them all familiar to me within, setting aside all the pain and resentments from the people who deprive me of affection, from the people i cared the most.
I looked at their eyes, and it seems very foreign, it’s not as bright as the light coming from my phone, wherein i try to connect with people who won’t even try to feel me, wherein i try to show the people who neglects me that I’m doing good, not minding their absence, much.
I was emotional that day, i was actually having tears while i was composing this, i have realized that i lost a lot of opportunities wherein o could be happy instead of focusing on my endless worries.
That day i felt love, from the comforting wind, from all the smiles i was able to receive back, i felt love when i felt tired during a long walk, i felt love because i feel alive.
And as i was entering in our house, nothing beats the warmth of a mother’s hug. What i want to say is that, take a break, look around you, and realize that it’s real, don’t lose the essence of life by all the new advancements arising in our world, there’s more to just browsing, posting, liking and sharing.
It’s around you, just look, just feel.
My Cup Of Tea 